I find myself in an unusual situation these days. I majored in Psychology in college and yet here I am about to step 100 percent into a new role that I've never fully taken on before. . . I'm about to step into the role of youth pastor. I worked with teens in Sicily, but they were already established, I was stepping into a group of teens who already had made a commitment to Christ for the most part.
Sunday we were sitting in church and as they flashed the sign up announcing our first teen gathering, I suddenly was overwhelmed with fear. How am I going to do this? I don't know the first thing about starting a youth group? Have I gone insane? What if I can't do this, or I'm not good with the teens? This is a good possibility since one of them is my own daughter and we don't always get along at times. What if the new teens come in and hate me and I can't get anywhere with them? My mind was racing a million miles a minute and then something happened. I realize - it's not about me, it's about listening to God and being given a burden for the teens not just in our church but in our city and the state of Washington.
I spent most of my life in the Midwest and there were generally an abundance of Christian radio stations, churches on almost every corner or so it seemed. I realize now, I am spoiled for Christ. I never really understood that they don't have all of the radio stations in other parts of the U.S. that we had in Kansas and Oklahoma. So I am here and I know that for God to move, we need to find ways to bring Air1 and Wayfm as well as KLove here to Washington - more specifically the Seattle area! I've seen Air1 and Wayfm come into Wichita and people who are normally never receptive to God begin listening to these radio stations and as I began to see the ways that God was needed here so desperately, I also realized I had a burden. I find myself in the position of groaning when I pray because my heart is heavy for the people here. I know they are in need - you see the evidence everywhere - adult stores, casinos are everywhere and the radio has every type of music imaginable except it has two poorly antenna stations that come in mostly with static here.
As I sat listening to our pastor give the sermon God laid on his heart, I knew it was going to be okay. God was in control of this idea and as I went forward to the altar to pray that God would take control of our youth group and it would be him, not me who worked and moved, I also confessed that without Him none of these things are going to be possible. Do I think our teen group is going to start growing? Yes I do, I sense it and I have from the moment we stepped into the church - God has plans for Everett 1st Church of the Nazarene and it is not to go bad on the vine, die and wither away. Chris and I have said it several times to each other - we know that God has something in store for this area, we are just going along for the ride.
I ask that you please lift the Washington area up in prayer. . . please pray with me as the teen group begins to work on growing and coming to know God. Pray that God will use us to help the teens and to help this area. Please pray with me that God will open the doors so that we can bring in new radio stations to begin speaking and working in the hearts of those who are in need of a touch from God.
I hope you all have a wonderful week and had a relaxing and uneventful Memorial Day.
Love in Christ,